I’ve never been very good about writing my blog. I have started a million and one interesting posts in my head, but somehow they never make it here. Well it’s time to change that. In four months time I will have quit my job to write full time.

Scary isn’t it?

I’m not worried about the money. Let’s face it. I make diddly squat. $9.30/hour. Seriously! I have an associates degree in Information Technology. And it is worth nothing. I suppose I could finish the other two years of school and have to get a job I really don’t want to do. The whole reason I went to school is to say I finished. Not to get a high paying job to pay off high paying debts. No, I leave the money making to Danny.

Yesterday for example, I went to work and made $52.50 for the day. Now granted it was a short day. However, Danny went on another round of appointments and made approximately $800.00. Even had I worked a full school day, he still makes more than me in a single hour. The scariest part about quitting is even though my paycheck is peanuts in comparison, I get paid regularly. His business waxes and wanes with the latest wave of viruses. I don’t like irregularity. Messes up my schedule.

So anyway, my goal is to write something every day. Maybe not here. I could be writing over at Geeks. Depends on the subject material. Or maybe I will log into Wikipedia and write changes into favorite entries. It’s practice, right?

That’s it.  Just five.  And then I’m done with that section of schooling.  I’m debating on whether or not to continue with school.  I want a break.  But I also want to get a four year and not just a two year.  I want to know more.  The rest of my classes are so easy.  Photo editing, Web Design 1&2.  I want to know about Flash and CSS and XML.  I think I’m beyond my remaining classes.  Too bad I can’t just test out. Even hubby thinks I should continue.  And that is really saying something considering how much it’s costing. 

Oh hell.  Has it really been that long since I posted?  Evidently I cannot stay focused.  LOL  In my defense, I am a busy woman right now.  I’m back in school full time.  I’m actually on the home stretch, about to get my degree finally.  Computer Information Systems and Visual Design.  Sounds fancy, huh?  The funny thing is, the degree gives me license to do what I’ve been doing for the past five years.  Danny thinks I’m silly.  But he does not understand the pull.  Since I was a child I’ve told everyone who would listen that I would have a college degree.  I’m turning 35 this year.  It really is about time I fufilled this promise to myself.  The only thing holding me back right now is me.  My kids are older, both in school all day.  I do work 30 hours a week but that was simply out of boredom.  It’s time.

The frustrating part is that Danny now wants me to find a way to make money off of my degree.  I’m still the same person, but because I spent this time in college, he actually wants me to use it.  LOL.  I know, I know.  I’m spoiled.  My mom tells me this all the time.  My graduation date is November 6th.  I’m counting down the days.

Have you ever agonized over a decision? Really thought hard about it to the exclusion of everything else? I have. This past week. I think I’ve made a decision. It is not going to be easy. In fact, even as I put this plan into motion, I’m having doubts. I know I will be happier. But it is so hard getting to that point.

Confused? Sorry about that. I never know who is reading this blog. I don’t want word to get out before the parties involved know. Gotta love the power of the Internet. So much at your fingertips. And everyone else s finger tips as well!

I always seem to be sick when I post. I’m thinking it’s because that’s the only time I have. Kind of sad really. I’m hoping I don’t have strep. I dunno though. I guess time will tell. Either way I need to go into work tomorrow. I’m not feeling like I can do it right now. I just mopped my house and collapsed on the couch. That simple chore wiped me out!

We saw HSM3 last week. You know, it had some really good musical numbers. “This Is The Night” was one, “The Boys Are Back” is another. But all in all, I was disappointed with the movie. There were a few sappy love songs with Troy and Gabriella. Nameless and totally forgettable songs. As per HSM2, they danced together while completely wet, again. And of course they had to throw in a “I’m so angry cuz everyone runs my life so I’m going to sing angrily and run around for the fan girls” song for Troy. The words were so pointless that the music was louder than his singing. Ally was sooooo excited to see this movie. She fell asleep halfway through. That should really tell ya something.

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Originally uploaded by TweetyUT

This is the beautiful view from Fire Tower Lookout in Manila, UT. If you’ve never heard of Fire Towers, it’s a great story. I’m sure you can find it on Wikipedia.

I don’t understand the pull. The desire to drag my daughter back into the world of dance. I really don’t know if it was the camaraderie of other moms, or the thought that I was forcing my daughter to do something I thought was good for her. I really did think that it was what she wanted. Dancing five nights a week. Doing two competition teams and a solo. Plus numerous other classes to fill her time and hone her skills. I had convinced myself that she loved it. I know now that I was delusional.

But why? I really think it was the feeling of being involved in a group. You know, I’ve even thought to getting involved in a church to see if I could replace the feeling. Not a very bright thought as I would consider myself atheistic. It’s addictive! Always having other moms around and talking about every item and event in your life with them. And pretending that they are such great friends, that they would never take what you’ve shared and hurt you with it. Another delusion. It’s a sickness I think. Maybe instead of Dance Mom Syndrome (DMS) we could call it the Dina Lohan syndrome. I mean, her daughter is such a good roll model for my kid! NOT. Or how about the Lynne Spears Syndrome. OMG. They were Stage Moms! Not quite DMS but part of the same addictive and deviously deviant classification. I am not going to end up with my daughter shaving her head and crashing her car night after night!

So why am I sad this week?

It’s dance competition tryout week. All of her little “friends” are trying out for the teams. Of course they will all make it. Tryouts are such a joke. I didn’t know that until she first tried out of course. I’ve been thinking about it all week. I feel like I’m keeping her from her fun. Well, it turns out my little girl is so much smarter than me. I actually worked up the nerve to ask her if she missed it, if she was sad. She did admit that she is sad. But not for the reasons I was feeding myself. She said that she didn’t want to try out for the dancing, but for the friends. And after her birthday party, she realized that they aren’t very good friends after all. All of the talk of never forgetting each other, and emailing all the time, and staying best buds, it was all crap. And that’s really what she’s sad about.

So maybe she’s not a little dancing star anymore. But she’s a very smart child. And I am very proud of her.

But I also wish the DMS drug would leave my system!

Well, we went to see it today! Even better, we saw it on the IMAX screen. The last 30 minutes or so were in 3D. So totally worth the extra price. The 3D scenes almost made up for the disappointments of the movie.

I understand it’s a long book. A reallllllly long book. There was so much in this book that the movie would have had to have been three times as long. And I don’t mind that the lesser plot points were left out. But to change the story completely? I don’t understand that! It’s not happened before in this series. Why now? Was it the new director? Is this what we can expect from movie VI? The overall style of the movie was good. I rather enjoyed the ambiance of this movie. But the changes!

There was not much of Tonks at all. We see her a bit at the first. NOT how I imagined her at all. Where was the spiky bubblegum pink hair? Her hair was purple in the movie! She knocks over a vase. Changes her hair color once, and entertains Ginny with a pig face during dinner. Other than that?

Kingsley Shacklebolt. Ok, why did I imagine a very tall, very buff black dude in a leather jacket and shades as in the Matrix? What we got was a smaller black guy in full African wear. Quiet and barely noticeable. I guess I was just wrong on that one.

Arthur seemed creepy to me in this one. Dunno why but his mannerisms and facial expressions scared me.

Where was Marietta Edgecombe? She wasn’t in the screenplay I guess. We learn in the movie that the DA was ratted out by Cho. Harry learns later that it was due to Veritaserum. There was no horrible date in Hogsmeade. No jealousy over Hermione. If you ask me, they left that one wide open with the script. We, the readers, know how Harry feels about Cho at the end of the book. The average movie goer still thinks they have a chance. YUCK!

The movie had good points too.

The twins. Always a wonderful addition to the movies! Just when Harry gets too dark and angry, they “pop” in behind him to offer some levity. Thank goodness the big leaving the school scene was left in the movie. Although we never got to see the Portable Swamp, the fireworks were marvelous. Bravo.

Ginny finally got more screen time! Woohoo! It’s about time. Now, I know she was bound to in this movie seeing as how she is at the Ministry at the end. But she was a big part of CofS and we hardly saw her until the end! I love Ginny’s character. And I love that they touched on her casting skills with the Reducto curse. I was so bummed that they didn’t show the “chocolate in the library” scene with Harry, or her angrily reminding him that she too knows what it feels like to be possessed by Voldemort. They also didn’t mention her infamous Bat Bogey Hex. But, whaddayagonnado? She was in the movie. I’m holding onto that.

Nevile also had plenty of screen time. Woohoo! We didn’t get to see his parents at St. Mungos, but they did touch on their story. They really delved deep into Neville. Showing his frustration at spell casting. His wonder and performing a spell. His loyalty to Harry. He’s an outstanding character. And have you see the actor these day? Hottie!

Luna. Oh my gosh, what can I say about Luna? She was so perfect! Evanna Lynch is one bloody fantastic Luna! It’s too bad they didn’t talk about Harry giving the exclusive interview to the Quibbler. But the scene in the woods with the Thestrals? Awesome.

The best part about this movie was the 3D Ministry scene. I was upset about the statue not coming to life, but to see that epic battle in 3D, every spell shooting straight at us, it was amazing. I feel sorry for those who didn’t get to see it in 3D. Maybe the disc will be released in 3D? I hope so.

Now to wait until the 21st. Will Harry die? I hope not. But only Jo knows for sure.

Ok I admit that I am biased. But to me my girls are beautiful. Not just appearance wise. Abby looks out for Ally. She watches over her and is very protective. Ally looks up to Abby. She wants to be just like her and tries to emulate everything she does. It’s a circle that, I hope, will be impossible to break. When I’m gone, and Danny has passed on as well, they will have each other. And I believe that bond will still be unbroken and they can be there for each other.